Write, Type, Fight for Those “A’s!”
It is midterm time and the end of the Spring Term. Feeling burnt out? Yeah you could say that in the least! I’m getting so tired of school and just can’t wait for my Summer vacation. I am having low motivation on completing my homework. Just pushing along hard enough to get by at this point, but I want to keep my grades up so I need to work hard and not slack off at the end like I always do.
I know I can do this. I just recently broke up with my boyfriend and I miss his dumbass very much. He really was a sweetie and a good person but not good to me while he is using drugs and in a different mind state. I was always worried about him and wondering what he was doing while high because he gets into these crazy antics and I’m practically two states away from him while I’m up here in Oregon and he’s close to Nevada. I have to admit that I really really miss him. And it makes me sad that when I go home next month for a week during Summer break that I will probably not see him, especially if he is still using. I don’t know, it’s complicated, but it’s probably best if I just leave him alone. Well I have 2 essays to work on and a summer job to look for so I have to get busy and start working on those.
Not to mention my stomach ache that I’ve had for the past two weeks. It’s been excruciating! Seriously painful. I went to the doctor and she said I probably have an ulcer so I’ve been drinking Mylanta like a Mo Fo. And it only seems to help for a little while. Soon, this coming week I will be getting an
Mylanta for Ulcer
ultrasound on my tummy to see what’s going on in there. Plus it makes me bloated and I feel like I look like I’m pregnant which makes me feel uncomfortable and insecure. I have a BOFO (you see my stomach befo’ you see my butt), because my stomach sticks out farther than my ass. How embarrassing! Anyway I hope to get my health taken care of so I can concentrate on my studies and not worry about all the pain I’m feeling in my abdomen.
I have just broken up with my boyfriend and in turn lost my best friend. It’s hot outside and I feel like I’m 30-pounds overweight. I am not doing very well in my Ancient Art class and I am really worried about the midterm in the class. I am not clear on what we are supposed to write about and I have a terrible time remembering the flashcards that he gives us every week. I feel like I have no friends and I am really lonely here at school. It’s probably because I am a lot older than a lot of the other people who go to school here.
I don’t know what to do about my depression other than starting to get more involved with AA meetings again and I would also like to start going to the student recreation center as well. During summer break I will continue living here on campus and I would like to have a job by then. Not only to make some money but to also make some friends and meet some new people. There is a possibility that I have an interview at Greenpeace, which is a cause that I would like to support and it might look good on my resume.
Well I am determined to change something because my lifestyle is not working for me currently and I need some emotional support and to meet a group of people who I can bond with. I’m getting burnt out at school and am struggling to keep my grades up. I have to start writing down on my calendar what extra-credit projects I can work on and get those things out-of-the-way, so I can ensure myself that I will get better grades in my classes. Right now I have two “A’s” and one “D.” I am very scared to get put on Academic Probation because that might mean I will lose my financial aid.
Today was my boyfriend, Bryan’s, first day at his new job doing construction. It is a really good job that pays well with a very professional real estate/construction company. One of the stipulations was that you needed to have a reliable form of transportation. Obviously something to transport tools and other building materials around in, like a truck. Although his truck had formerly been in an accident and been sideswiped by another vehicle and had a big smash on the passenger side it still had a good frame even though the passenger side door did not open any more.
When he got to the gas station to fill up on his first day of work the keys would not turn over the ignition, which has been an ongoing problem in his truck for a while now. But it just had to happen on his first day to his good new job. So he called around to different scrap yards and one only offered to pay him $25 dollars for the truck. The most he could find to get for the truck was $100. So he took that instead. But I thought he would totally get more. It seems like robbery that they would only give him $100 for a truck that was just one minute ago in almost perfect running condition, albeit the smash on the side.
Anyway I went to pick him up at Starbucks where he had been waiting for the tow truck all day and then we went to go get the rest of his tools out of his truck at the scrap yard. It was sad to see that they had already spray painted the truck and marked it for demolition for parts. Well I hope he gets to keep his job that he wasn’t able to make it to today. His parents are kindly coming down to help him look at cars this weekend. So he can keep this job which he worked so hard to find. Wish him luck as he deserves it. He has had some bad luck with cars lately.