Well, I spoke with Brian Renauer, and he told me that it was okay to go ahead and finish the final exam by answering the last essay question and he would revise my grade to a better grade depending on the points I get for the answering of the question on the exam.I am so elated because this means that I have a chance at continuing my tribal funding for school and housing next term and next year! This is such a big deal I cannot explain how relieved and overjoyed I am that the professor was willing to work with me. I had to be honest with him and tell him that my disability was acting up and was preventing me from getting a satisfactory score on the final exam which dropped my grade solo. I was doing great on the assignments, getting 100% on almost everything and turning everything in. I took copious notes in class and answered questions asked of me end more. I went above and beyond in that class and I know that I can get a passing grade of a c minus when I go to finish this final exam question.
I have not told my parents that I got a bad grade and I am afraid to find out what they would say about it. But now that I have this huge opportunity to up my mark in the class, I now can proudly tell my tribe that I passed with a c minus and that constitutes a total of 12 credits per term which is the minimum amount of credits I have to take in order to be eligible for the financial aid that they award to students.
thank you God for giving me this second chance and I swear I will try my hardest to complete the question to the best of my ability and make it be known that I understand what is going on in the class and that I was present and tried to the best of my ability to complete everything that I could except for missing this one last question. I am so grateful that Brian is a understanding and sensitive man and cease the seriousness of my plate. he told me to go ahead and take my time but I need to get my last terms grades into the tribe so they know that I completed my 12 units which was the agreement from the beginning. The financial aid states that I must complete a total of 12 units and pass with a 2.5 GPA or above. So, I have successfully, so far, completed and succeeded in my quest 2 be a good standing student at Portland State University and get those darn 12 credits.
It is midterm time and the end of the Spring Term. Feeling burnt out? Yeah you could say that in the least! I’m getting so tired of school and just can’t wait for my Summer vacation. I am having low motivation on completing my homework. Just pushing along hard enough to get by at this point, but I want to keep my grades up so I need to work hard and not slack off at the end like I always do.
I know I can do this. I just recently broke up with my boyfriend and I miss his dumbass very much. He really was a sweetie and a good person but not good to me while he is using drugs and in a different mind state. I was always worried about him and wondering what he was doing while high because he gets into these crazy antics and I’m practically two states away from him while I’m up here in Oregon and he’s close to Nevada. I have to admit that I really really miss him. And it makes me sad that when I go home next month for a week during Summer break that I will probably not see him, especially if he is still using. I don’t know, it’s complicated, but it’s probably best if I just leave him alone. Well I have 2 essays to work on and a summer job to look for so I have to get busy and start working on those.
Not to mention my stomach ache that I’ve had for the past two weeks. It’s been excruciating! Seriously painful. I went to the doctor and she said I probably have an ulcer so I’ve been drinking Mylanta like a Mo Fo. And it only seems to help for a little while. Soon, this coming week I will be getting an
Mylanta for Ulcer
ultrasound on my tummy to see what’s going on in there. Plus it makes me bloated and I feel like I look like I’m pregnant which makes me feel uncomfortable and insecure. I have a BOFO (you see my stomach befo’ you see my butt), because my stomach sticks out farther than my ass. How embarrassing! Anyway I hope to get my health taken care of so I can concentrate on my studies and not worry about all the pain I’m feeling in my abdomen.
Unfortunately spring break is now over. It’s time to get back on the grind of schoolwork. I tremendously enjoyed my time off with the beautiful rainy showers and intermittent sunny days peaking through the clouds. It felt like winter time all over, which is my favorite season, so I got to reminisce and enjoy the past season which we just had. I love bundling up and layering up my clothes and wearing my beanie in the cold weather. I guess you could say I’m an introvert and I like to hide under the cover of cool clothing and umbrellas and hats. It just makes me feel me feel more comfortable and a little less exposed, than in the summer when it gets hot and you have to be all out there in shorts and tank tops and such.
So I got to enjoy spending some precious time with my “infamous” boyfriend as he likes to call himself on this blog now. Where we watched movies and spent a lot of time cuddling and hanging out together. He is starting a new job tomorrow so he will be turning into my new sugar daddy at least that’s what he told me and we will be going out and doing more fun stuff like going on trips to the city and going to art museums and stuff like that, which we enjoy. We have just not had the funds lately and have barely had enough money to go out on dates to go out to eat at restuarants and out to the movies. We have pretty much just been house bound which I have been fine with but I know he is getting anxious and wants to go out more, which is why he is hoping he gets paid once a week instead of twice a month so that we can do something every week if we feel like it. I love him so much I just want him to be happy and I don’t want him or us to get bored doing the same thing all the time. I mean we are still young and we should be out there having fun and exploring and going on adventures. Which we will as soon as he starts getting paid. Although I do not know if he realizes that his job doing construction and going to school is going to be pretty demanding and he will probably be tired a lot, especially his first few weeks.
Anyway I am working on my education right now and after I get my degree and get employed I will become his sugar momma, since we plan on being together forever. I plan on paying it forward and giving back to him as much as I can and anyway I can pay my own way right now. With my parents help they will allow me to go on trips on special occasions to the museum in the city and certain things like that will not be a financial problem for me. As long as I continue to do well in my classes and am able to keep up with the work I will be ok. That is my first priority at the moment right now, doing well in school, and I am. I currently have a very high “B” in my difficult math class and I have an A in my other social media class. I like my social media class because it introduced me to this blogging stuff and I absolutely love it. I have gotten liked and comments from people when I would never expected it. I’m so thrilled that people are reading my posts it makes me happy to know that people can relate to what I’m going through. So for all of you who are reading this and for all of you who comment and follow me thank you it really means alot to me. I have to admit I am an attention seeking person.
My boyfriend was concerned of why I was sharing my diary with the whole world and wanted to know if there was something we needed to talk about but it’s just something I enjoy doing. I like to see if other people will read my entries, if other people can relate to what I’m going through and if anyone has an interest to what my daily activities are but me. And I’m surprised that they do and if not that’s ok too. I’m mostly just writing for myself to see if I can become a better writer/person and improve on myself as a whole. There’s many things that come to light to when I’m writing about my daily activities. and things I find I can improve on. Or things that I find patterns in. Sometimes there’s things that I’m embarrassed to share about. But I haven’t had the guts to get that far to the point of writing about those things yet. I read other people’s posts and I am inspired by their writings one day I hope I can be as good as them. And one day I hope I can inspire others too.