I’ve been looking for my snowboarding boots all weekend long and I finally just found them! My boyfriend and I were supposed to go snowboarding last Friday but we didn’t have chains for his truck and it was going to be snowing all day long so we decided it wouldn’t be safe to go without them. Unfortunately our snowboarding trip keeps get putting off because of one thing or another and finally this last friday we woke up at 4 A.M. we were all packed ready to go and checked the weather it was raining we we were at and it said snowy and windy in the mountains so without chains on the truck it was a no go, once again.
So this coming Friday is going to be it. The infamous snowboarding day, the one day that we get to go up a season. I can’t wait. I looked for those darn boots everywhere last Thursday, in the addict, in every household closet, in the laundry room and in the shed outside. I crawled through rat poop and spider webs but to no avail did I find the boots, which really pissed me off because I knew I was probably gonna have to rent a whole set of a snowboard and boots because they have the new click in apparatuses which I have the old strap in kind. Not only would I have to teach myself how to use a new mechanism I would also have to pay extra money which I don’t really have. So now I can save a little bit of money and possibly buy myself a new e-cigarette because mine blew up in my face a few days ago.
I’m super excited to go to the snow it’s my favorite thing to do. And not to be cocky but yes I am good at it. I can jump off ramps and catch air I can slide down polls and do a 360 degree turn but that’s about it. I can’t bust any badass tricks or anything but I can do some basic snowboarding things like go down the halfpipes and stuff like that. But my favorite thing is just floating on the fresh powder and carving through it. I heard there’s a lot of snow up there right now so hopefully the conditions will be nice when we go even though it’s becoming close to the end of the season there’s just so much snow this year that it’s going to be a long season. And I’m so thankful that I will have time to get up there before it’s over.
Unfortunately spring break is now over. It’s time to get back on the grind of schoolwork. I tremendously enjoyed my time off with the beautiful rainy showers and intermittent sunny days peaking through the clouds. It felt like winter time all over, which is my favorite season, so I got to reminisce and enjoy the past season which we just had. I love bundling up and layering up my clothes and wearing my beanie in the cold weather. I guess you could say I’m an introvert and I like to hide under the cover of cool clothing and umbrellas and hats. It just makes me feel me feel more comfortable and a little less exposed, than in the summer when it gets hot and you have to be all out there in shorts and tank tops and such.
So I got to enjoy spending some precious time with my “infamous” boyfriend as he likes to call himself on this blog now. Where we watched movies and spent a lot of time cuddling and hanging out together. He is starting a new job tomorrow so he will be turning into my new sugar daddy at least that’s what he told me and we will be going out and doing more fun stuff like going on trips to the city and going to art museums and stuff like that, which we enjoy. We have just not had the funds lately and have barely had enough money to go out on dates to go out to eat at restuarants and out to the movies. We have pretty much just been house bound which I have been fine with but I know he is getting anxious and wants to go out more, which is why he is hoping he gets paid once a week instead of twice a month so that we can do something every week if we feel like it. I love him so much I just want him to be happy and I don’t want him or us to get bored doing the same thing all the time. I mean we are still young and we should be out there having fun and exploring and going on adventures. Which we will as soon as he starts getting paid. Although I do not know if he realizes that his job doing construction and going to school is going to be pretty demanding and he will probably be tired a lot, especially his first few weeks.
Anyway I am working on my education right now and after I get my degree and get employed I will become his sugar momma, since we plan on being together forever. I plan on paying it forward and giving back to him as much as I can and anyway I can pay my own way right now. With my parents help they will allow me to go on trips on special occasions to the museum in the city and certain things like that will not be a financial problem for me. As long as I continue to do well in my classes and am able to keep up with the work I will be ok. That is my first priority at the moment right now, doing well in school, and I am. I currently have a very high “B” in my difficult math class and I have an A in my other social media class. I like my social media class because it introduced me to this blogging stuff and I absolutely love it. I have gotten liked and comments from people when I would never expected it. I’m so thrilled that people are reading my posts it makes me happy to know that people can relate to what I’m going through. So for all of you who are reading this and for all of you who comment and follow me thank you it really means alot to me. I have to admit I am an attention seeking person.
My boyfriend was concerned of why I was sharing my diary with the whole world and wanted to know if there was something we needed to talk about but it’s just something I enjoy doing. I like to see if other people will read my entries, if other people can relate to what I’m going through and if anyone has an interest to what my daily activities are but me. And I’m surprised that they do and if not that’s ok too. I’m mostly just writing for myself to see if I can become a better writer/person and improve on myself as a whole. There’s many things that come to light to when I’m writing about my daily activities. and things I find I can improve on. Or things that I find patterns in. Sometimes there’s things that I’m embarrassed to share about. But I haven’t had the guts to get that far to the point of writing about those things yet. I read other people’s posts and I am inspired by their writings one day I hope I can be as good as them. And one day I hope I can inspire others too.
Everyday I plan on going to the gym and everyday I don’t make it. Why is it so hard to get to the gym? I can make it maybe once a week but I’d like to go once a day if not at least once every other day. I mean geez I’m paying $50 dollars a month for the darn membership, I really feel like I should be making better use out of it than sitting on the couch and watching TV or even writing on this blog, but I get so addicted to electronic devices that I lose track of time and I even find myself spending quite a lot of time watching movies with my boyfriend at his house that sometimes on the weekend we don’t get our day started until 4 or 5 P.M. like we did today. But it’s so nice just to chill and relax and lay in bed with my lover all day long eat and cuddle and hold each other and watch movies and nap all day long.
I have to admit I do have some trouble with procrastination. And I do have recent proof of that getting me into trouble, with my psychiatrist appointment and with my hair cut appointment. One my psychiatrist got mad at me and two my hair came up not the way I wanted it to. So how do I deal with this procrastination problem and the being tardy and lateness issue? I will have to get up earlier and jump in the shower way before my appointments start so that I know I will give myself enough time to drive to them, since I live out in the country it takes a little longer for me to travel to the city. It usually takes me at least an hour to take a shower and get dressed and half an hour travel time to the city.
But my gym’s right down the street and I don’t need to take a shower to get ready to go there. I guess I could make up the excuse that’s it’s only open until 5 P.M. on the weekends and 8 P.M. on the weekdays. Which gives me enough time but not when you’re a late bird like me. I wish it was open 24 hours a day like my boyfriend’s gym then I might be there more often, at least on the weekends for sure. It’s so hard for me to plan for things on the weekend because those days are my free days and when the gym closes early I feel like I lose precious time with my boyfriend. Especially when he will start his job that will be our special time together.
Anyway I could go on with the excuses but I know it’s just my fault and more of my procrastination and though writing these blogs/diaries I am able to see the better of my faults and I will try to work on them and get back to you on how it’s going. I hope my techniques of planning ahead and giving myself enough time to get ready and realizing what my priorities are, because working out is important for me. I plan on training and getting prepared for snowboarding for this upcoming week. For when my boyfriend and I plan to go snowboarding/skiing this coming Friday. We have to strengthen our legs and get prepared for the high altitude. So wish me luck as I get off my lazy ass and get my procrastinating butt to the gym.
I’m just chillin watching a Nicholas Cage movie while my boyfriend sleeps next to me. Its about 2:11 A.M and I’m tired but I cant go to sleep. We were supposed to go snowboarding today but it waz snowing and we didnt have any chains for his truck.
This morning we tried to watch Netflix on his laptop but we always have the worst time getting his hotspot connected to the computer. So that was frustrating.
Then we tried to watch CNN on his phone and that didn’t work either. We open all the windows and door if that’s going to help get better WiFi at all. It’s pathetic and super frustrating. So we quicmly took showers and got ready for a hike instead of sitting in the house trying to get a signal all day long.
Even though it was raining we decided to leave and go mud stomping. Which was fun and i enjoyed it cause there were hardly any people.
After our hike we came back and got In-and-Out Burger. And gorged ourselves on junk food. We watched one movie called Eye In The Sky shich was very good, took a nap and went for another walk. So according to my Fit Bit watch we took over 12k syeps today and burned 2k calories.
But im getting very tired now and I think I’m going to bed. So goodnight,sleep well and sweet dreams.
Today it’s storming pretty bad here in Sonoma County. My boyfriend and I were planning on going up to Tahoe to go on a snowboarding adventure. But since it’s raining we decided it be best not to go up to the mountains without any chains on his truck. It probably would’ve taken longer to get up there anyways and we would’ve been snowboarding with snow in our faces all day long because the weather forecast said it was going to be windy and snowing all day long.
So once again our snowboarding trip is put off for another week. We have to go on a Friday because it’s a special deal for college students where it only costs $15 per lift ticket compared to the regular $75 daily price of a lift ticket. Plus I don’t know if it would be fun to go snowboarding with snow and wind in our faces all day long. At least it would have been really tiring to be cold and wet all day long. Yet I was willing to do pretty much anything just to get up there as I just want to go snowboarding so bad, ugh! This is frustrating.
Once again this is partially due to my procrastination because we could’ve rented chains for $30 for five days instead of buying them for $60. Which would’ve have helped since we are both broke right now. Why is it that only rich people can afford to going skiing and snowboarding? It’s just so darn expensive. And I couldn’t find my snowboard boots last night so I was pretty sure they got misplaced in the addict or my dad might have accidentally given them away to the Goodwill. So last night I was kind of pissed off when I found out I was going to probably have to rent boots and a board, the kind where you click in in instead of strapped in. Which I’ve never ridden before and would’ve have been a new experience for me, even though I just got this other older board which I love, and much rather ride than a used rental board. I know I’m sounding spoiled, we’ll I guess I am, I’m daddy’s little girl. And since I am focusing on finishing my education right now and don’t have a job, it was important that I go snowboarding today because I know I’m probably not going to get another chance to go this season.
Next week when we go at least we know there will be snow from this week’s storm. We will be ready with chains and boots and what ever else we might need. I just hope the weather conditions are superior for the one day that I get to go up a year. I can’t wait and I look forward ro next Friday, yay!
My boyfriend and I are just relaxing in bed. He is playing his guitar while a watch the movie “Girl on a Train.” I’m using his Hotspot to write this post as I’m almost out of data on my phone. He is playing Karma Police by Radiohead and he says he wants a smoothie. But all we have in the fridge is milk.
We were going to go to church this morning as we are both in recovery and like to do things for bettering our spiritual connection to God. Like it says in the 12-steps programs. He is so sweet and I love how he is open to doing all sorts of things like that with me. Although we woke up too late.
He says he doesn’t like the coffee he got so we are going to the store soon to buy some stuff for the house. Yesterday he got a new/used truck so he can continue his job search and hopefully get a job soon doing construction or whatever he wants to do. He ended up having to scrap his old truck a couple days ago but his parents came down to help him purchase a used car for work and transportation purposes, because he lives out in the country and a bike is not an option when you are looking for a new job in construction.
I love Bryan so much. We have been together for almost two years now. After being separated from each other for ten years when we were together for about five years before. Although back then it was a turbulent relationship due to the fact that we were both strung out on heroin and cocaine. Those days were terrible and I’m so grateful were both clean now. He has about 7 months and I have 5 years clean and sober. So together we are a strong couple.
He is more of an extrovert type and I am more of an introvert type. We balance each other out well. He is the most gentle, loving, thoughtful and caring man I have ever met and I plan on being with him for the rest of my life. Not to mention he is handsome as hell and gets me going every day. He is my knight in shining amour. I love him so much it’s hard to put into words. I could just go on and on about all the good things about Bryan but I don’t want to bore you but I have to admit I am truly and surely head over heals in love with this man. And I am so lucky we found each other through Facebook and ran into each other at Big Lots on that faithful and beautiful day. He is my biggest supporter and love of my life. Did I say that already? Well I mean it. I will stop now for fear of getting to mushy.
Do you have anyone that you love or have ever loved this much? If so I would love to hear about it. Being the hopeless romantic that I am.
Today was my boyfriend, Bryan’s, first day at his new job doing construction. It is a really good job that pays well with a very professional real estate/construction company. One of the stipulations was that you needed to have a reliable form of transportation. Obviously something to transport tools and other building materials around in, like a truck. Although his truck had formerly been in an accident and been sideswiped by another vehicle and had a big smash on the passenger side it still had a good frame even though the passenger side door did not open any more.
When he got to the gas station to fill up on his first day of work the keys would not turn over the ignition, which has been an ongoing problem in his truck for a while now. But it just had to happen on his first day to his good new job. So he called around to different scrap yards and one only offered to pay him $25 dollars for the truck. The most he could find to get for the truck was $100. So he took that instead. But I thought he would totally get more. It seems like robbery that they would only give him $100 for a truck that was just one minute ago in almost perfect running condition, albeit the smash on the side.
Anyway I went to pick him up at Starbucks where he had been waiting for the tow truck all day and then we went to go get the rest of his tools out of his truck at the scrap yard. It was sad to see that they had already spray painted the truck and marked it for demolition for parts. Well I hope he gets to keep his job that he wasn’t able to make it to today. His parents are kindly coming down to help him look at cars this weekend. So he can keep this job which he worked so hard to find. Wish him luck as he deserves it. He has had some bad luck with cars lately.